Roller coaster post

Salam :D

SO,

This post is kinda private and not so beneficial I supposed but then I'll try to insert some good things alright. *as if there's anyone out there who cares to read HAHA

Seriously, I hate to have such feelings. Do u know what kind of feelings I'm referring? It's like u seriously don't have time to TERcrush to anyone because college life is not the time to enjoy and looking for *teman hidup* ceyhhhh :P as like what I've been repeating before,  PRE-U is the most toughest and crucial stage in our education because if we flunk in our pre-u as for me *A-LEVELS, puffff ur gone. haha  Okay itu over I knnow but more or less like that. Kena start all over again. Ye lah U mana nak terima budak yg fail beb ?

Nadia once told me : We don't need to worry as the right person will come at the right place at the very right moment. :)

Just keep praying. That is all we need to do NOW.  Well, as for me, I would love to do everything and to know everyone in life BUT we just need to prioritize.

Okay, I should be finishing this post as I'm taking too much time here. STUDY xgerak2 lagi. >.<"

Honestly, as I enter college, of course I TERRRR nampak/focus to a few people. hehehe *gatal naa tp I'm not that desperate okay. I still know what is more important to me. Of course study is everything as for now as for me :) but I cannot help. The other curious and skillful in stalking part in me sometimes overtake the nerd me. HAHA What a description huh =.='

Anyways, I secretly told myself that I would really like to be friends with them. There are three of them. If you are close friends of mine, I'm surely u would have some names in your mind because it is not that hard to guess. HAHA Especially if u are with me from high school.  1-A...... 2-B......3-C.........

As time goes by, I get to know A tp masa tu mcm xde la crush sangat, biasa je. But things got complicated after Malaysian Studies and now mcm xde harapan to be friends anymore. HAHA but it's okay. I'm over it. Lantaklah. malas nak layan. And I knew B because of flight things bla3. Eventually, we became a pretty good friends. That's good.  As for C, I really have no idea how to be friends with C because we just knew each other during orientation. Game Tom and Jerry ? haha We're not even classmates so there's no things to deal with and xkan nak g tego2 tiba. "Hai, nak kawan x dgn aku ?" That would be insane. HAHA So, I let it pass. We just angguk to each other if terserempak at kedai uncle level 1. haha That , I would call we're friends. haha

And coincidentally, I needed C's help later after our first acquaintance during orientation week. HAHA and supp I think we become friends now. Now, I am friends with all of them except A, I'm not sure how. Let time do its magic maybe. I have 1.5 more years here anyway. 

My point here is how ALLAH is powerful to *membolak-balikkan hati manusia* .

Sekejap2 I feel like I  like one person, another time I feel like I get over with him and like another person.  But of course, I keep it to myself. haha Because it is not the time yet to find bf/partner ? LOL and I'm not that sure whether this is a true feeling or just main2 and I don't think he likes me back. HAHA buat malu saja dong.

If I were to put it in a simpler way, sekejap2 I like oneD songs and now I'm really into Boys Like Girls. When will WESTLIFE SIMPLE PLAN BSB will show up? Always liking em and never will change. hehe

SOMEDAY. WHEN THE RIGHT TIME COMES.

My point here is I don't want to have any pointless feelings like this. I feel very insecure and  hopeless and sometimes desperate pfft. I need to let it go. Yakin lah when ur ready, ALLAH will give u the things and person (maybe) u need.

I want to do lots of other things and I want to achieve GREAT things too. So, this useless crush feelings and liking shouldn't come across my way. LIKE SERIOUSLY NO!!

Things I wanna do :

• Reti main guitar pepel tu
• Own an ipod touch *white colour and pink MACbook
• Reti swimming gaya bebas n gaya katak n gaya kupu2 *bukan yg satu nafas tu je =.='
• Blaja naik kuda *bukan keldai, nanti dia stop utk kencing mcm kat uk pfft
• Own a camera besar and learn photography
• and of course acieving kemanisan iman n kemanisan ukhuwah. G mekkah UK EUROPE lah senang   

                                                                                                                                 THAT is why I cannot have these kind of feelings. Mengganggu konsentrasi tau x?  Doa lah supaya kita sentiasa fokus and tak ter-off track with all these temptations because 

                  my dreams wouldn't be falling from the STARS.                                                                         

emotional breakdown. haha

Salam :D

I should be studying now but there's too many*much things been playing in my mind. Just wanna let them go. That's why I am here writing this post. I know, it has been a long time since I posted anything. I mean yeah. Apa2 la kan.

SO,

How should I put them.I always wonder or maybe assume that  I will survive A Levels. Yeah. I never think of applying MARA or other scholarship apart from PETRONAS, BANK NEGARA and some private scholars. I wasn't really sure why did I choose to do A Levels at the first place except that I want to go to the UK again. I want to go to 35 Falkland Street again and sit on the bench near the tall Christmas tree around the shopping mall (cant remember the name PJ HUGE??) eating onion bread.

AND,

because of the reasons above, I willingly choose to do A levels that I thought more or less like SPM :D optimistic me eyt. haih mcm mana nak cakap ni. HMMMM. so here I am then. AND now I know A Levels is surely not a piece of cake nor MORE OR LESS LIKE SPM. It is damn hard and it requires tonnes of hard work and effort. I need to have the highest level of self motivation in order to survive in which I think I'm lacking of right now :'( Okay.

Back to business. I keep feeling so down and frustrated because I failed in Math test a few days back and during the two-hour-break, I went to the library and isolated myself in the quite zone. Calling che nor and crying sikittttt  je eh. HAHA After that I felt so much better . I decided to go back late. I took the last bus as I don't wanna meet my housemates because their results GEMPAK GILE la kan. Nanti I  would fall down the hill guling2 lg haha. I just need to have some time alone. *bunyi depressed gile kan haha biasalah in order to get up we all need that little time  utk *berkabung* sekejap. LIKE that 4th of May when I discovered I failed to get petronas. muahaha Yelah and that what if thing. If I went BNM interview interview AND not PETRONAS, would I be called a Bank Negara's scholar now? Tapi ALLAH knows the best. I seriously cannot tanggung FURTHER MATH woooooo. lagi la depressed. MATH pon mcm ni.HAHA lol

I stayback with Nadia and I'm lucky to have a friend so nice like her. She told me that

"It is okay to feel down and sad but don't be for too long :D Get up and be successful, then u'll appreciate ur achievement more as u know how it felt to fail :D " 

-NADIAsyamila-

"Go treat urself with something sweet and expensive :D Beli chocolate mahal2 tu. Beli subway. Cheer urself up. U've bought a purple guitar kan  haha "

-CHEnor- 

Looking back, I know I don't have the rights to complain and feel down. Tengoklah betapa ALLAH itu sayangkan saya. Menyayangi hamba-hambaNya. HE give me PEOPLE who love me more than anything. Such awesome friends. Air to breath, another day to live :D SUBHANALLAH~~  ALLAH uji sikit je baru dah rasa nak putus asa. Remember, be grateful. You are here already. In Taylors after getting straight A+. What more to ask Faraheliena ? :) All u need to do now is get back up and work HARDER okay. Don't ever feel down because ur not alone. ALLAH will always be by ur side :')
Tengok kanak2 dekat GAZA, xde peluang langsung nak g UK, blaja, buat a levels or even to live their LIFE :D Astarghfirullah...

PRAY FOR GAZA 

PRAY FOR GAZA

InshaALLAH doa2 dari org MUKMIN itu akan ALLAH makbulkan. 

AMIN :') 

Another problem err bukanla major problem sangat *biasalah remaja sedang membesar. HORMON EMOSI xstabil mcm roller coaster. Next post eh ^^

BTW BOYS LIKE GIRLS Be Your Everything. Awhhhh.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UttOVBD-Rvw