Rejections

Too much of a simple word. Rejected. Rejection. Kena reject.

Tapi xpe, semua ni ujian. Ujian ALLAH nak tengok sejauh mana kau bersyukur dan reda dgn ujian2 yg kecil ni.

Usaha je. InshaAllah I will be flying high this September. Nak yakin jugak. Tak kira.

xoxo,

Fe.

15-4-14

Assalamualaikum :D

I am grateful, Alhamdulillah
I am happy, Alhamdulillah
I am refreshed, Alhamdulillah
I feel good, Alhamdulillah
I am healthy, Alhamdulillah
I am full, Alhamdulillah
I have loving families, Alhamdulillah
I have awesome friends and sisters, Alhamdulillah

Although I felt a bit, just chakkanman of disappointment sip through me as wishes and thoughts from some of the people I hope to get had just lost in time. That's okay. I am not that significant to them.

I appreciate all my loved ones that wishes me the very best in everything. Families, friends, teachers,sisters and you :)

I pray that for all the du'as that you say to me will be reflected to you and your loved ones :)

20 years had passed, what have you done to this ummah and what is your goal Farah Eliena ?
Be a better muslimah and work hard to attain it. May we all be blessed. I am blessed today :)

I love you all.

Second best thing today

EXO Overdose comeback :) xoxo

Third best thing today

Playing netball malam2 dgn adik2 Setiawalk and friends

zzzz

Assalamualaikum

Usj 1 : Casa Subang : Ss15/8 : Taylor's College

Tomorrow is 15th of April. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh It has been EIGHT YEARS. I only manage to hear mama and papa's wish on the phone. Without salam2 like I used to get during primary school days. I lost my important days for eight times successively already. How frustrating. Do you know what's waiting for me here in this dusty Subang ? My trials' result :0

Ok bye. Sedih ni tengah homesick. blergh

...

fuh

hmm

sentap jugak la sikit

eh ke banyak

fine. I'm done haha

fuhh

Better get going, Edinburgh City is waiting. Scottish Festival is welcoming.

Fareez xoxo

Assalamualaikum :D

Happy 12th birthday to adik/abe/fareez my handsome brother. You are getting taller than me now. I am happy for that. I can buy you cool clothing and make you wear them so as to look smart. hehe 

May you always be happy and stay healthy. Semoga dapat 5A in your UPSR this year and continue to be a good boy. I love you always. Come and visit me in the UK later this year. I hope you will miss me too. haha 

Go and ask for nice presents from Che Nor. I'll see you around.

Love you always xoxo 

You will always be my little brother. 

Anything just tell me yah. 

Please grow up fast and be a handsome guy like him :)

with love,

Kakak 

Judgmental-Grateful-

Assalamualaikum

Personally, I think that I can cope with my stress quite well but it seems the other way round to other people. My friend keep saying that I always 'membebel, merungut' which maybe I did most of the time without realizing them. I don't think that as a negative thing as I spit them out. haha Maybe when other people heard of it, they think of me as one-noisy-xbersyukur-suka merungut-lady. Lady lol But I guess they don't know me enough to think of me that way. That are my way in coping and striving this hard study-life.

So, how do I cope with stress the right way? I always think of these kind of things when I am alone. How do I improve myself in public speaking?  How do I stay positive in every situations especially the hard ones? How do I make myself as successful as others but always remember to be grateful at the same time? How I try so hard not to be judgmental and I believe that with practice, everyone can have the heart of GOLD.

No matter how close we think we are with the other person, we can't possibly penetrate into her mind and heart, we can only see what she portrays outside and that's why we don't have any rights to judge.

Let's move on. I applied for SHELL Scholarship a few weeks back. In the midst of my trials, I put so much effort in applying it. My hope is as big as the globe so as to get an offer for an interview. hehe A few days back, my friend text-ed me saying she received an email from SHELL to do an online assessment which I didn't get. T.T Now you know where this paragraph is heading to right? I was a bit disappointed hehe Hmmm Nobody can console you except yourself. I am grateful.

Dulu, xdpt  petronas tp ada back up bursary. Sekarang xdpt shell ada back up jpa. Of course I am grateful. Cumanya xsalah kan kalau kita nak berusaha utk dapatkan yg terbaik. Terbaik bagi pandangan saya lah. Tp hakikatnya yg TERBAIK bg saya hanya ALLAH yg tentukan That is why no matter how hard you try, u must turn to ALLAH in the end supaya xkecewa :) I'm good. Alhamdulillah.

Let the lights shine your way

All I have to do now is to continue thinking and be grateful. With EVERYTHING. Smile in every situations. Cherish everyday. Train myself to love everyone and think good of everything. Your life will be much more happier. May ALLAH bless