emotional breakdown. haha

Salam :D

I should be studying now but there's too many*much things been playing in my mind. Just wanna let them go. That's why I am here writing this post. I know, it has been a long time since I posted anything. I mean yeah. Apa2 la kan.

SO,

How should I put them.I always wonder or maybe assume that  I will survive A Levels. Yeah. I never think of applying MARA or other scholarship apart from PETRONAS, BANK NEGARA and some private scholars. I wasn't really sure why did I choose to do A Levels at the first place except that I want to go to the UK again. I want to go to 35 Falkland Street again and sit on the bench near the tall Christmas tree around the shopping mall (cant remember the name PJ HUGE??) eating onion bread.

AND,

because of the reasons above, I willingly choose to do A levels that I thought more or less like SPM :D optimistic me eyt. haih mcm mana nak cakap ni. HMMMM. so here I am then. AND now I know A Levels is surely not a piece of cake nor MORE OR LESS LIKE SPM. It is damn hard and it requires tonnes of hard work and effort. I need to have the highest level of self motivation in order to survive in which I think I'm lacking of right now :'( Okay.

Back to business. I keep feeling so down and frustrated because I failed in Math test a few days back and during the two-hour-break, I went to the library and isolated myself in the quite zone. Calling che nor and crying sikittttt  je eh. HAHA After that I felt so much better . I decided to go back late. I took the last bus as I don't wanna meet my housemates because their results GEMPAK GILE la kan. Nanti I  would fall down the hill guling2 lg haha. I just need to have some time alone. *bunyi depressed gile kan haha biasalah in order to get up we all need that little time  utk *berkabung* sekejap. LIKE that 4th of May when I discovered I failed to get petronas. muahaha Yelah and that what if thing. If I went BNM interview interview AND not PETRONAS, would I be called a Bank Negara's scholar now? Tapi ALLAH knows the best. I seriously cannot tanggung FURTHER MATH woooooo. lagi la depressed. MATH pon mcm ni.HAHA lol

I stayback with Nadia and I'm lucky to have a friend so nice like her. She told me that

"It is okay to feel down and sad but don't be for too long :D Get up and be successful, then u'll appreciate ur achievement more as u know how it felt to fail :D " 

-NADIAsyamila-

"Go treat urself with something sweet and expensive :D Beli chocolate mahal2 tu. Beli subway. Cheer urself up. U've bought a purple guitar kan  haha "

-CHEnor- 

Looking back, I know I don't have the rights to complain and feel down. Tengoklah betapa ALLAH itu sayangkan saya. Menyayangi hamba-hambaNya. HE give me PEOPLE who love me more than anything. Such awesome friends. Air to breath, another day to live :D SUBHANALLAH~~  ALLAH uji sikit je baru dah rasa nak putus asa. Remember, be grateful. You are here already. In Taylors after getting straight A+. What more to ask Faraheliena ? :) All u need to do now is get back up and work HARDER okay. Don't ever feel down because ur not alone. ALLAH will always be by ur side :')
Tengok kanak2 dekat GAZA, xde peluang langsung nak g UK, blaja, buat a levels or even to live their LIFE :D Astarghfirullah...

PRAY FOR GAZA 

PRAY FOR GAZA

InshaALLAH doa2 dari org MUKMIN itu akan ALLAH makbulkan. 

AMIN :') 

Another problem err bukanla major problem sangat *biasalah remaja sedang membesar. HORMON EMOSI xstabil mcm roller coaster. Next post eh ^^

BTW BOYS LIKE GIRLS Be Your Everything. Awhhhh.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UttOVBD-Rvw

SYUHAIDA SYU SYUUUUUUU.

 ini dia  KAWANkawanku yg cumeel dan SYU dearest yg diraikan. 

COMELkan kawan2 aku. tengok faraheliena lah. bahaha 

*nak cover sedih :"( SYU gelak tauhh

Dearest friend of mine : SYUHAIDA AHMAD KAMAL :'D

*dari pagi lagi buat post nie tp x-TER-tulis apa2 lagi syu :")

*jadi speechless

One thing for sure, this morning I browse through your  latest post and as expected, bergenang kot air mata. *I cried hihi. Tp bukanla over over SYU :D Xpasti lah sedih tu kenapa. Rindu SYU dan rakan2 STF barangkali. Yang pasti,  the fact that my dear friend here is going to fly away to JORDAN is like

 "cepatnya masa berlalu. Syu nak fly dahhhh???"

 and JORDAN is so far away from Malaysia :'( sobs sobs sobs Tapi, ingat balik, di setiap pertemuan itu pasti ada perpisahan. Benar. Perpisahan itu pahit. Syu nak fly sebab nak menuntut ilmu. Jihad ! Jihad SYU :) Kenapa perlu bersedih. Cheer up and support SYU. karang lagi dia nangis kalau kite yg sedih. 

:)  -->  :]  -->   :D --> <3>

Nanti bila dah lama2 berpisah, lama2 pergi belajar, balik2 semua dah GRADSS. yeehaaa! semua dah LAWA and SLIM. wohoo #xpasal saya tahu. Anyways, nanti bila that day comes, we will all gather together again and reminisce the sad, bitter, sweet and bittersweet memories together. Bawakla apa2 or SAPE2 yg patut. haha #girls talk

JADI 

SYUHAIDAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA 

AHMAD KAMAL :D

DONT FORGET KITORANG DI MALAYSIAAAA aaaaa

WE will always be missing u SYU comel :D 

ini pesanan utk anda. khas utk anda sb anda nak fly petang ni ke bumi JORDAN. 

• SYU, jaga diri, jaga makan, jaga barang2 penting, jaga HATI. hik3
• SYU, belajar bersungguh sungguh. biar dapat stret A selalu. hik3
• SYU, jangan ada boifren kat sana. nanti
• sedih TUUUT. haha 
• tapi kalau ada pon cerita la kat kte. kalau ada crush ke apa ke. okke
• SYU, nanti selalu lah contact. now kan dunia maju. ada skype. ada whats app. Kasik number JORDAN nanti tauh
• SYU, jangan lupa buat INSTAGRAM and add kite sb nak tengok life syu kat sana :D
• SYU, stay strong and jagan cepat give up tau. okay :D
• SYU kena kuat kat sana. kat bumi orang. kat negara lain. BERHATI HATI selalu
• Kalau nak klua, make sure ramai2 and ada lelaki tauh :D
• SYU banyak lagi tp xtertulis. I miss yaaaaa and jangan lupakan kte
• Nanti kte jumpa lagi tauu. 
• Doakan kte dapat fly UK  ngan AMIRUL. 
• SEMOGA KITA KAWAN SELAMANYA
• kalau ad or ngurat kata dah berpunya. ahakzzzzz

That's almost about it. too much babbling nanti xfly syu sb nak baca post neh. HAHA. SYU baca doa naik kenderaan and be safe SYU <3>

JANGAN NANGIS !! kirim salam STFians kat sana. Kak Bayah especially <3>

SALAM ALAIK ukhti, uhibbuka fillah *cewah

College life again.

I got the lowest mark for mathematics test. 27 over 40. The average mark was 32 and above. pffft. and a number of students got full mark. So sad and very much frustrating huh. Dulu masa sekolah rendah xpenah dapat B or selain number one. Naik STF, mula rasa dapat B and xpernah jejak number one anymore in form. Masuk college mula lah nak rasa jadi budak paling 'pandai' dalam kelas. Oh great. Great life you say.

Dugaan cabaran. Chaiyokkk. but still -.-' damn bad man. hihi