ACTUALLY~~

Assalamualaikum and hello everyone.

Syaza was awarded with THE FLYING COLOURS AWARD at the HKSBP that was held at Sekolah Tuanku Abdul Rahman. Sultan Perak gave away the 'lencana penuh'. Something like medal or something and her picture receiving the award was captured and inserted in today's Berita Harian online in the state section.

Of course, I am proud that one of  my best buddies got that amazing and prestigious award and our school name was mentioned in the caption. However, I don't know the reason of the feeling of happiness that I feel today is not the same kind  when Wardah's face was on METRO, BERITA HARIAN and BERNAMA.  That happiness was filled with delightful, relief and  proud. Oppositely, I am feeling happy but at the same time, frustration sneaked in and placed itself deep in my heart. I don't like this feeling. The feeling of insecure and sadness that should not appear in me. ==' Jealousy maybe. haih -.- Kenapa ni ?

 

 hmm pfttt~

Why am I having this paradox feeling? Sebab kau mengaharap benda yang kau tahu kau xmampu. Kau bukan sedih sebab orang lain dapat. Tiada kena mengena dengan siapa2 pun, cuma you are sad because you know very well that you want something that you have no guts and will to achieve it. Kau memang xkan mampu. And that is the start and the reason of why frustration boleh muncul. Betul x? Betul tu.

Mungkin.

I will never discuss about this with anyone because people will give the same response and I will be marked as one ungrateful person.  This is when my dear blog come in handy :') Lega rasanya bila dah luahkan benda ni. HAHA. Always worrying about this stuff. Bila lah masa nya nak risau pasal boyfriend ke. *bahahaha I really don't want to think about thaaaat. =='

The best solution  --------> EAT

 

That's why I am trying very hard to 'ubat hati' right now. Yet, I am amazed of my sister. Yeah! the one that is studying in KISAS. Her class is 403 err xpasal. I will tell you why in the next post. She asks me to always recite the Ma'thurat because it is our strength. I should be grateful with what I have. 

Xpelah rezeki kau sampai sini je kan. Adalah kebaikan dan kelebihan lain pada diri kau yg org lain xde. Jgn tamak dan jangan selalu merungut. Be optimistic !! jyeahhhh~~

Al-Baqarah ayat 112 : mafhum dia : Sentiasalah menyerahkan diri kepada ALLAH dan berbuat baik. Nescaya dia mendapat pahala di sisi Tuhan nya dan tidak berasa takut dan bersedih hati pada mereka.

Here are some inspiring piece of mind from OthmanAFFANZuhir from SEMESRA. He is one amazing writer with a very amazing way of putting up his ideas. 

Whatever hardships and struggles we face today,

they will soon be replaced with glory and victory.

You reap what you sow, as the saying goes.

Always stay positive for every difficulty we encounter today,

for you shall be rewarded of your patience.